Feeling Some Stability

I don't have much time to record my thoughts, but I wanted to make an entry while I am feeling pretty good and generally happy. Things have been going well lately. I'm happy that we may soon be celebrating a full year without pornography in our home. That is a huge victory and I am so proud of my husband. Lately, he has shared many of his insights on his recovery and it seems that attending the 12-Step group has been the most fundamental instrument in his success. He has been very vigilant in avoiding situations that would be a temptation for him. Lately, he has shared with me when he is feeling weak or susceptible to his addiction, and has allowed me to help strengthen him. That has been a good experience for us as a couple.

I have been doing better personally too. I still struggle with some uneasiness and anxiousness, but I am feeling more stable. I decided to take some classes this semester to help me focus on some things I need to complete before I can graduate, help me feel less isolated, and give me things to accomplish with less time to dwell on the negative. This has been extremely helpful and I am really enjoying the classes and semester. I'll be looking for another job soon too, hopefully. I'm trying to get my feet planted back where they were before this disaster was unveiled last year and move forward with my personal progression. I am grateful for the things I have learned this last year, but I am still devastated by the mechanism for those lessons. I hope things continue to improve and I am doing my best to stay positive and grateful!